8 Weeks

Eight weeks already! I whined at the beginning that this pregnancy seemed to move so slowly, but now it's picking up some steam thankfully. Lots of random thoughts today.

Instragram pics. Don't worry -- it's grape juice I'm holding!

1. Last weekend I went with a group of friends to our annual winery trip. Luckily I've remained nausea-free, so  the trip wasn't as bad as I figured; in fact I had fun. I brought my camera gear which helped occupy me while the others drank. Admittedly I felt some pangs of jealousy at my favorite wineries, but it's not like I'll never drink again ... right? 

2. Not much in the way of symptoms, though the fatigue is back. Food cravings are still there, but not as strong as last week.

3. I had my first OB appointment on Tuesday. It was mainly just talking to an office nurse regarding family history, medical history, dos and donts, etc. But the best part of all was finding out when I get my first ultrasound -- April 10. I am sooo excited for this one, but I'm

also equally terrified. I keep replaying stories of women who are told at this appointment there's no heartbeat or the baby stopped growing, etc. The further into this I get I obviously grow more attached to my little peanut. I just can't fathom going through a loss. Each time someone on my birth month board announces a goodbye, I just want to cry.

4. According to my handy little illustration, baby has little arm and leg nubs and is developing eyes! It all seems to happen so quickly from little blob to real characteristics and body parts! This whole thing is so mystifying and amazing.

5. I finally got around to ordering a tripod yesterday so I can start doing weekly bump shots. I'm a bit of photo perfectionist, so I'm having a hard time coming up with how I want these to look -- do I wear the same outfit? Face the same direction? Right now I'm just lumpy between the bloaty belly and the ever-increasing-in-size backend, so it's not too pretty too look at.

Anyway, happy Friday to all!!

7 Weeks

7 weeks as of yesterday! Each Friday when I move into that next week I feel a mini wave of relief. I've been so fortunate this week to have a little more energy back and absolutely no nausea. The lessening of the symptoms do make me nervous, but I still have a few constant symptoms hanging around.

The one that emerged this week -- food obsession. I fed my inner fat kid this whole week. I'm craving really bad for me foods like fast food burgers, pizza, cheesesteaks, carbs. Eating is such an experience these days. It makes me so happy. While I'm thankful I'm facing that instead of all day morning sickness, I know I can't keep on this path or I will be 800 lbs by second trimester!

In about an hour we leave for our annual winery trip. This year will probably be a little bit more boring for me, just watching my group of friends and husband sip wine all day, but I'll try to make the best of it. At least there'll be plenty of food to look foward to!

Too Soon for Maternity Clothes?

Over the weekend the hubs and I went shopping. Because of my awesome bloat belly, I thought it might be time to get a feel for what size maternity clothes I might be wearing soon. It's been awful dressing lately. Like I wrote before, I normally have a rounded out lower belly, but now? It's ridic. I was never a big pants wearer, but now my only pants options are leggings and my stretchy almost yoga-pant NY & Co. "trousers." I really thought my closet of over 100 dresses would pull me through many months of pregnancy, but they all seem to emphasize the bloat. Announcement time can't come soon enough!

So anyway, I have no idea what pregnant woman in this town do for clothes.How will single racks of maternity clothes in JC Penney and Old Navy are get me through until November?? We used to have a Motherhood Maternity but we lost that months ago. Online shopping it is. I did at least pick up two non-mat dresses at Kohl's that should suffice for warm weekends - yay empire waist!

Instead of clothes, we came home with another book - this time for the daddy-to-be. Upon the recommendation of my friends, I signed up W to received the weekly BabyCenter emails, which I figured would do the job. But alas, this book was $4. I may crack up the first time I spy him reading it. But we're five and can't talk about baby books without re-enacting Seth Rogen and Katherine Heigl's fight in "Knocked Up" -- "I didn’t read the baby books! What’s gonna happen? How did anyone ever give birth without a baby book?!"

You know what else is ridiculous? The pregnancy/food relationship. Friday after work I went to the grocery store to pick up some rice (BRAT diet for my GI bug). I also grabbed some hot chicken tenders on my way out. And then something snapped in me as I got into my car. I pried open the chicken bag. It was like I lost all concept of etiquette and decency as I drove the rest of the way home with one hand on the steering wheel, the other clutching my fried chicken. I have never felt so pregnant than I did in that moment.

6 Weeks

According to the BabyCenter week by week illustrations, I have a tail in my body. That's kind of insane. 

Just as I was getting over my cold, I developed some sort of GI bug Thursday night. It took me a while to figure that out because I immediately attributed it to pregnancy, based on the knowledge that progesterone can throw your body completely out of whack. Needless to say it's been a miserable last couple of days. I always thought the first time I threw up in this pregnancy it would be because of pregnancy... 

I've told a few more close friends and coworkers about our little secret. I'm guessing by the time we've gone public, half the world will know anyway. With each day that goes by I feel a little more secure about this baby sticking thankfully. I hope my intuition is right.

Next weekend we go on our annual winery trip with friends. Even though I'll not be able to enjoy the vino, I have all fingers and toes crossed I won't feel too nauseous and tired. Bouncing around between 32 wineries with drunk friends in unpredictable weather doesn't give me ideal conditions to ne sick. Maybe I'll tote around some grape juice so I can feel more involved. ;)

Food on the Brain

Today is 5w3d and so far so good. I'm getting used to the everyday fatigue, and now that my cold is almost over, I'm sleeping through the night so much better. I think a lot about food. I'm guessing that will change should morning sickness strike in the next few weeks, so I'm going to just run with it.

Last week I thought a lot about sauteed vegetables. This week? Red meat -- cheesesteaks, hamburgers, bacon... I'm pretty sure I dream about it. A friend told me that's a boy sign, but I'm trying not to put much weight to those wives' tales. Oh, and sadly carbs are pretty nice too. The smell of my chicken noodle casserole is making my mouth water right now. I hope that craving goes away quickly; the last thing my butt needs are more starches.

I've been slowly accumulating books and downloading iPhone apps to help me navigate through these exciting and daunting nine months. Books are great of course, but I'm finding the most value from my BabyCenter app, which gives me a checklist. The other app I use daily is one called BabyBump which shows daily and weekly updates and tips. Oh technology. Someday I'll have to tell our baby he/she was conceived with the aid of an app.

Also, and more importantly, I'm fortunate enough to have a fabulous network of women in my life, many of whom have/are going through pregnancy and parenthood. Thankfully I can ask any silly question to them, and while they may internally mock me, they're very understanding about explaining certain things to me. And any question that is too mortifying to ask those women? Those go to Dr. Google. What did pregnant women ever do before the Internet??

5 Weeks

Why does time seemed to have stopped since I got my BFP? I'm only ONE-EIGHTH into this?? Actually I'm just impatient to get to second tri, mostly because I know my risk of miscarriage decreases at that stage.

I cursed myself the other day after my last blog post. The morning after voicing my sadistic wish for morning sickness ... viola! The next morning was awful. No throwing up thankfully, but still... ! And since I seem to be on a complaining kick, let me vketch about the cold that's kicking my pregnant butt. Apparently you can't take any decent medication when you're with child, so I have snotted and sniffled without the luxury of my usual Nyquil and throat logenzes.

Oh hai, bloat!

Thankfully my husband has been pretty great this past week, getting me whatever I need and asking me often how I'm feeling. When he calls from work he'll ask, "How's the kid?" as if it's something bigger than its current appleseed-sized state. And again, for fear of not remembering this wild time in our lives, I'm going to risk mortifying him someday when he finds this blog to share what he emailed Wednesday: I just wanted to take a second and tell you that I love you and that I can’t even begin to describe how happy I am that we are expanding our family. I just hope to be the best father and supporter in the world.


I've 'confessed' to a few more people this week. As much as I fear telling too many people because of how early it is, these are all people I wouldn't have a problem "un-telling." I'm basically an open book to all of my friends and colleagues, and it's killing me to have to withhold things or try to remember not to complain about a certain symptom that would totally out me.

At any rate, I'm thrilled it's the weekend and that I can take endless naps for two whole days! Apparently pregnancy turns you into a two-year-old (or college student).

4w5d

Today marks 4w5d and still no nausea -- which is good, don't get me wrong, but the sadistic part of it me wants a bit of it because it would reinforce a growing embryo. I have the typical 4-5 week symptoms: lots of fatigue (I think about my cushy bed once an hour) and swollen boobs. I've cut my caffeine intake by half, upped my fruit and veggie intake, and dutifully take my prenatals. I wish that I could be doing more, so I'll probably start walking around my neighborhood after work once the weather gets a little warmer.

Nope, not a baby bump.

I research a lot. It helps in a weird way to hear from other paranoid 1st trimester gals and compare symptoms and fears. I think about being pregnant constantly. I suppose that's a normal reaction to something this life-changing, but I know that not everyone needs to hear about it constantly.

I've always had a pouchy lower tummy area -- even at my thinnest in high school and then again in 2009. I've been convinced that everyone in the world suspects I've been knocked up for a year now. A shallow part of me wishes I was "out" so that I could stick out my bloaty belly with pride. But no. What looks like a baby bump is actually a food bump. Plus some newly added 1st tri bloating. I'm bound to get even more curious looks now.

I want to tell everyone I know about this, but holy crap, I'm not even 5 weeks in. Most women don't even KNOW they're pregnant this stage in the game. And as much as I'd love to start picking up baby items and maternity clothes, I'm afraid I'll jinx everything once I do!  Yes, it's illogical, but welcome to my brain. I've already come to terms that I'll be a crazy pregnant lady. My poor husband.