How far along? 39 weeks
Total weight gain: 28 lbs.
Sleep: Awful! Very jagged sleep. Between 30-34 weeks I was able to sleep for about two hours in my bed, but often move to the couch after midnight. Then I fight to get comfortable and need several bathroom breaks. My best period of sleep happens between 3-6 a.m. At 38 weeks, I'm lucky if I get a 90 minute stretch of sleep, and I'm full-time on the couch moving from side to side, peeing about 6 times a night. Is it weird I'm almost looking forward to that awful newborn sleep?
Best moment this week: Making it to 39 weeks and my C-section date! While going into spontaneous labor would have been kind of interesting, I'm happy things are going to plan ... so far at least.
Miss Anything? Being comfortable and sleeping. I know that won't happen until after my recovery and once the baby gets longer stretches of sleep, but the last few months of pregnancy are no joke!
I just can't believe I'm sitting here the day before we get to baby Molly. I feel overwhelmed, but also ready. I'm praying everything goes well and that she's healthy. I wear a lot of scars from our experience with Lucy. I want the most boring postpartum experience with Molly so bad -- including all of us leaving the hospital together. And unlike with Lucy's kind of spontaneous arrival, I'm pretty well planned with this one. The postpartum anxiety I felt with Lucy is such a vivid memory I want to do mitigate as much of it as I can early on.
While the journey to Molly was a lot longer and more challenging than I expected, my pregnancy with her has been overall great - pretty textbook. I have extra fluid and she's bigger than average, but everything is pointing to healthy. I wonder so much things -- will she look like Lucy? Will she be her own little person not at all like baby Lucy? How will Lucy react? How will I react? Admittedly it's been harder to connect because of my second-time mom guilt. I've been only Lucy's mom for so long it's difficult to add another person into that role. I'm sure the minute I meet her it will all change.
Miss Anything? Being comfortable and sleeping. I know that won't happen until after my recovery and once the baby gets longer stretches of sleep, but the last few months of pregnancy are no joke!
I just can't believe I'm sitting here the day before we get to baby Molly. I feel overwhelmed, but also ready. I'm praying everything goes well and that she's healthy. I wear a lot of scars from our experience with Lucy. I want the most boring postpartum experience with Molly so bad -- including all of us leaving the hospital together. And unlike with Lucy's kind of spontaneous arrival, I'm pretty well planned with this one. The postpartum anxiety I felt with Lucy is such a vivid memory I want to do mitigate as much of it as I can early on.
While the journey to Molly was a lot longer and more challenging than I expected, my pregnancy with her has been overall great - pretty textbook. I have extra fluid and she's bigger than average, but everything is pointing to healthy. I wonder so much things -- will she look like Lucy? Will she be her own little person not at all like baby Lucy? How will Lucy react? How will I react? Admittedly it's been harder to connect because of my second-time mom guilt. I've been only Lucy's mom for so long it's difficult to add another person into that role. I'm sure the minute I meet her it will all change.
Please arrive safe and healthy, little one. We can't wait to love you forever.
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